Thank you for your awesome and constant support
I'll always be thankful for you guysI'm about to write something which I just want to get off my chest
so, if possible ... please bear with me
Honestly, Since January 2014 ... I'm pretty broken ... and ... I'm just ... somehow ... doing what I do
I know I have found many good friends here .... but deep down .... I know that .... I'm not okay
Sometime I just feel like .... I should just .... stop caring about people ... but I can't
I feel like giving up almost every day .... every second
like .... just ... leave everything and go to sleep ... and never wake up
Then again .... I chose this path
I knew that the path of a warrior is a solitary one ... and I chose it
I knew I can't rely on anybody .... but I did
I knew it will only bring pain and sadness ... but I didn't resisted
I knew that it will not end well .... but I continued doing it ...
I broke the promises I made ...
I made compromises with my rules ....
I tried to make myself sociable ... breaking the fundamental rule of the path I've chosen
I tried to run away from my past ...
I tried to deny who I really am ...
I don't regret it
I don't blame anyone but me
I made the choices and promises who lead me to this very moment I'm living in
and I will not run away from the consequences
I belong to a bloodline where my ancestors stood strong against all difficulties
The embraced their pain and kept on doing what they were supposed to do
They didn't do it to see me fail
I will not be the one to give up
Not today .... Not everThank you for being here ... I'm on my way to complete physical and mental recovery
I'm still weak ... but I'm stronger than yesterday
and I'll recover my former strength in no time
New serious drawings coming soon